Many dreams and darkness into uncounted minutes
It’s hard to stay here counting missed medications
I find some comfort in the night but
I wake up with the guilt of not sleeping
It’s hard to stay here
counting missed medications and
chapters read, episodes watched
moments of a life not lived
I find some comfort in the night but
the ceiling’s
growing heavy
the hours stretched out on the rack
I wake up with the guilt of not sleeping
my exhaustion’s in another room
isolated by chemical
dependency.